Define love...

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Shocked by what you told me, speechless now that I know this
I don't know what to say
Hope you understand that right now, I feel like I still don't have an answer to your statement.
Just silence for what I know will be noise sooner or later.
Hope you will have patience waiting for me...

I saw my autograph book. Surprisingly, my eyes found these:

DEFINE LOVE

My friends have stereotypical answers to this question: It's like a rosary, it's just an infatuation and stuff like that. If I were to define it, it would be a lot different.

Love is a dangerous drug...

So let me explain my statement to you...

Love should be considered as a dangerous drug. LOVE is a form of drug which is not intended to cure a disease but it can sometimes and that is in desperate cases. It is highly addictive. It contributes to dependence on the substance physically and psychologically. Physically because your body needs it. Psychologically because you think you need it. Once you start on a physical dependence on it, you can't just stop any second you want to stop. If you do so you will suffer from withdrawal symptoms and you'll be very ill, and at certain cases, it is FATAL.

LOVE has phases like drug has phases to drug abuse:

The experimental phase where you first encountered the drug or in this case, the person. you talk and get to know each other.

Next phase is the occasional use where, in the case of love, is the phase where you do not crave for the presence of the person. You enjoy each others' company. That's all.

Next is the regular use phase where you crave for the company of the other. You can't live without him/her. You need the other. You always want him/her to be there with you and you hope you'll be together forever. This is the phase where you experience a sudden change in your behavior. you may not notice it but others do.

Next and the very last, dangerous phase is the dependence stage. You get crazy when you don't see him/her. You need the other as much as you need to breathe and eat. You will do everything to be with him/her and pay any cost it takes. You would rather die than not be with the other half of your heart.

There are factors which contribute to it. Peer pressure, curiosity, ignorance, alienation or just the sense that you two are made for each other. It has gateways like drinking and smoking are the gateways to drug use. One is being friends. The other is being TRUE TO EACH OTHER.

If ever you decide to withdraw from love, you need rehabilitation. People do this differently. Some go shopping, some cry over it until it's gone, some tend to play games all month long, some clean their house to forget. There is no certain method for rehabilitation and also there isn't his certain period of time. You'll just find out which works for you when you experience it and watch it die.

Love can be fatal like some drugs are. Some attempt suicide because of it. It also works like hallucinogens because you get to hallucinate all the time and sometimes it can also work as a stimulant or a downer. It has several different effect depending on the person who has had intake of it.

So...this is why I define love as a dangerous drug. If you have other definitions for it, just drop a comment, define Love and the reason for your definition. The more you can write why you defined love that way, the better. :)

I LOVE LIFE>>>I LOVE MYSELF>>>I LOVE EVERYTHING THERE IS WITH ME RIGHT NOW.>>>I LOVE LOVE THIS DRUG CALLED LOVE...

I you do agree with me, tell me how this drug works for you, how addicted you are to it and in what phase you are in right now.

That's all, TOODLES!

My New Template

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Happy, just happy
I've got my new template from pyzam.com. Thanks to the website I don't have to make a template of my own anymore because I don't know how. Hope I'll be able to learn this stuff and how they work that way i will be able to make my own EMO templates :) Nice huh?

I picked this template because I love skulls and crossbones, I love the colors pink and black and I love love hearts. Hehehe. Template fits me like a tailored coat.

Anyway, I just watched the movie "The Notebook" yesterday. a friend of mine told me about it, told me I should watch it, and so I did.
My pillow got really soaked. I didn't cry because of the tragedy of these two, I cried because there were 2 old folks crying. I hate it when I see very old people cry because I pity them and I cry with them same as I do when I see small children cry. Sigh...

G2G, I'm using my father's notebook to post this. I need to do stuff for school even though it's our sembreak. Wish me luck!

Young Journalists (and a random topic I just wanted to comment on)

:::MOOD:::
I'm like a saggy old sock

Just got home. Tomorrow is a holiday, we have no classes because it's the end of the Ramadan. I came from a awarding ceremony for a contest on journalism. And guess what? I....lost. Er... see, I'm a little disheartened over the issue. I didn't even win a place.

To inform some of you, I'm this little-wittle kid whose frustration is to write good features. I put my heart and soul into it. I really don't like it when I don't get to express my ideas and opinions so I put it all into writing.

The topic given to us was: Write something about your most memorable lesson in English. The first thing that came to my mind was Journalism but I guess it will be a common idea for everyone. So I wrote about the second thing that came to me. Well, it's a he and not a thing. I wrote about the father of tragedies, William Shakespeare, the Bard of Avon. My article was put to the trash can, or if they had an incinerator, it would have gone through there. Poor poor ideas, poor poor effort. They weren't given attention and were just scrapped.


I feel like I need to write. So I thought about getting a random question from my profile and here it is:

"How tall would you be if you had never cut your fingernails?"

Um, I never answer height questions. Like I said earlier, I'm this little-wittle girl. I look like a grade school pupil but I'm already in high school, everyone tells me that. Next question please...

"When you hesitate before hitting snooze on your alarm clock, are you being lazy?"

Hesitation. People hate hesitating...they block your perfect way to making a decision. Me, I always hesitate. I hesitate because I have fears.

The morning will greet me with such. First there is hitting snooze on my alarm clock. Doing so will provide me an extra minute or so of sleep BUT it will also make me late for some things I ought to be doing in the hours to come later. So I think about this, everything I do, I think about it. The consequences, the results. Makes you think my whole life is measured huh? But no, I still make mistakes.

The problem with me is, I'm scared of mistakes. I'm scared of failure. To add to that, I'm also scared of the unknown, the future. Failure always comes to my mind when I think of the future. Yes, I want to be successful. But what if I don't become one? What if something gets on my way? What if I just wouldn't be able to handle the problems that I will be facing in the future? What if...

Hesitation. Here he is. The series of what if questions that come to your mind every time you think about possible life situations, every time you think about the future. Next week shall come our exams and now, I'm blog writing. I'm supposed to be reviewing. Hesitation. He's always there. He's telling me to stop whatever I'm doing right now to do another. Is there really a way to avoid hesitating?

Choosing to follow what your heart says is a way. If you want to play, then play. I you want to scream, scream. Whatever you fell like is write to do in the meantime, do it, before it is to late. Having confidence and feeling it deep in your heart makes you overcome hesitation, helps you make a solid, final decision. Makes you a better person who can overcome his fears and do what he feels is right and true to his heart.

Hesitation will always come. By the time you think about making decisions, listen to your heart, think about it if it is the right thing then go ahead on doing it. Never ever panic. Just stay with your decision and you will never go wrong. If you do make a mistake, at least you had a decision which made you feel that you had the utmost respect to your ideas and insides. Mistakes are only parts of life. You'll get over them shortly after you did them. Disappointment because you didn't do something right, because you didn't listen to your heart, because you just thought about something and had been to impulsive, makes things harder and makes suffering worse.

Hesitation. It is a fiend. But then it is there to help us. It is there to make us think, rack our brains, find better decisions and make the right conclusions. It is something which is there for us to listen to it. It is in other words, a friend behind a fiend.#

End of my article. Rate it, post comments. And I would very much appreciate your violent reactions and SUGGESTIONS. Make me a better feature writer. Insult my work, praise my work, I will gladly take everything that comes from YOU!

Tomorrow, I'm going to church to receive my confirmation. I'm excited to wear my dress XD Wish me luck!!!