my new desk

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happy

So here's my brand new desk. It's neat and I know what things are here and where I placed them. Here you can see the left side of my desk and a little of me because of the mirror. There's my pink and black yin yang which was cut by the camera frame XD. Some gifts from my friends, thanks again. "How to make onigiri" on the wall with my sisters watch and the strings of my guitar in a yellow plastic. My paper crimper and boxes and oh yeah, the jewelry box my parents gave me. I actually don't use it because I don't like it XD but then it's still a nice platform for my other things...Does it actually take this long to upload images here. It is getting to my nerves that I had to upload images one at a time!!!
Here's my desk. The pink and black cartolina background courtesy of my classmates, from our bulletin board. My name and an article from our school newspaper, boxes where I put my jewelry (I made the boxes). Oh god! This thing took a lot of my time already. *sigh* If only we had DSL then things would be a lot faster.
Now here's the right side of my desk where my collections are. My W.I.T.C.H. mag collection. from 1 to to I don't know what and my perfume collection. Picture of me and my best buds, my sisters and a lot of keepsakes.

That's all I have to show you. Got to go.

my wish to a star

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dreamy
I found these fabulous stuff dumped in internet web pages. If you happen to have money to buy these please, I'm here :)

Beautifully studded earphones...Would like to hear these songs playing in this holy stuff:


Paramore Lyrics
Pressure Lyrics

Paramore Lyrics
Misery Business Lyrics

Another of my favorite bands, PaRaMoRe

Fall out boy

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full of regret
The band FALL OUT BOY had a concert here in the Philippines in the Araneta Coliseum last 092107. I...missed it. WTF...the tickets were sold out...I think it was months before September. I barely had time to raise funds so...*sigh* testing if embed video would do here but if it doesn't just click the links below:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhp1pQp0dao
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vk_i5ZuTO5g





Some fortunate people did, however, watch it. And they left videos on youTube (well, would ya look at that. Pretty thing). I would have done that if I was there. So, enough of my mourning here, I'll just give ya lyrics because somehow they got to my house in a small thing we call ipod...

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Curse tickets! Cursed ticket cost!!!

Fall Out Boy Thriller Lyrics

Now I found out that these embed thingy actually work...hehehe...

the successful triathlon

:::MOOD:::I am tired but happy

Today is the most tiring day in my entire ...month. Well, yeah, i always get tired but today's different because I'm totally drained. Our report cards were just given today so here are my grades:

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filipino 91

english 97

mathematics 96

science 90

makabayan 92

ap 92

ep 90

technology 95

pa 93

computer 99

music art pe health 91

music 88

art 91

pe 89

health 94

elective: trigonometry 92

extra-curricular VS

conduct B

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I am very disappointed actually because again, I failed on MINOR subject which made my honor go down a level. I wasn't expecting everything to be a full line of 9 but I've got my hopes up and ended... I don't know.



But I wasn't the one who got my card. It's my mom. I was somewhere else, in a world I never knew existed... Me and the president of our council together wit one of our guidance councilors went to FEU for a LEADERSHIP training. It was...um...great. Except for the first few hours. We were there from 8 am to about 6 pm. the first few hours isn't worth mentioning but after lunch we finally had the workshop led by the NYC representatives. I was pretty relaxed in there. Everyone was commenting on how "cute" I am, even the host did when I was getting my bag from the raffle. So I took home a badge, bag, ball pen and folders but most of all, I've learned a lot in there. Well, except for the courses offered by the school and the equipments which came from Germany, we toured the place and it was BIG. The food was pretty nice.........ok was the dots there legal? Anyway, I also took home knowledge of course. how to make friends, how to be a leader, how to be vocal and I got to know myself better too. There wasn't a lot of cute guys...the ones who look good doesn't act good. They would usually cross their legs and clap in an awfully woman-like way, wasted!

So I wasn't drained by the workshop...what got me so tired? See, our school didn't support our little trip so we had to commute and first things first, I don't have a clue on how to commute or whichever place you should ride and get of the fx. Oh God! I was alienated. Another thing is, I don't have money to pay for our trip. See I have a big whole amount of money. If I pay that, I would like not have paid because it will take the driver a day to earn the change for that. So my companions have to pay my fee and I was so ashamed of myself. i haven't commuted all my life. I have rode the LRT only once in my entire life, I haven't ridden an fx and have ridden on a jeepney only thrice in my life, my entire "too innocent" life. I mean, I was like, "Is this really how people go from place to place. Is this still the Philippines?". Oh my God...

BUT HERE'S THE GREATEST THING ABOUT ALL THAT I'VE GONE THROUGH. I HAVE EXPLORED AND EXPERIENCED THINGS WHICH I HAVEN'T DONE BEFORE OR I HAVEN'T KNOWN THAT I POSSESS.

I was happy that i actually survived and sort of learned how to commute. I have seen who I really am, what I'm capable of doing...stuff like that. I felt like I have been part of a triathlon, a fruitful one where I have emerged victorious despite how relieved I am to finally flop down on our soft soft couch which i haven't really appreciated before and how strangely exhausted I was thinking which made me feel like fainting, the workshop or the trip to and fro? i think it was the trip. No, it was definitely the trip.

Hay, salamat sa Diyos at hindi niya ko pinabayaan. Kay Ate Lee, pasensya na kelangan mo pa akong i-babysit. Utang ko 'yung pamasahe ko. Hindi pwedeng hindi kita bayaran. Salamat at hindi mo ko pinabayaan. At sana makita mo uli si... Salamat din kay Ms. Acosta. Salamat po talaga.

Ok, I guess I've said everything that happened today. Now let me tell you about what's about to come to me. Again, i have to finish our project in Geometry because it's due on Monday and also my project in Arts because it's due on Tuesday. Our bulletin board is finish. i hope somebody will mail me the picture. it was adorable, beautiful, charming, delighting, eclectic, fascinating, gorgeous, h...ok I can't think of any word anymore. Nevertheless, it's worth our time and effort. It was also another victory. I hope it will really win though. I'll post a picture of it if I get one on my future post.

Everthing's said. To finish of here's a song from panic!:

The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage Lyrics

Panic! At the Disco Lyrics
The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage Lyrics

I know this is song is pretty weird but...i don't know. I like it.

Celebrations

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I want to greet my sis and dad a very happy birthday. I love you both even though you get to spoil my mood every now and then. OXOXOXOX
Anyway, there was a pretty lot of action happenin' today:

We watched "300" in school. I like it and I was laughing all the time. Cute!
My classmates got into boxing lately, without the protective gear! Hahaha! It was BLOODY brilliant. So one of them ended up with a horrible bleeding mouth much to satisfy my hang over from "300". Just bad that they
Then, I just heard that an accident happened in school with some pair of lovebirds. Romeo and Juliet huh?

I went to the mall with my bests. We went there to start our project on taking geometric shapes. It was hard finding an interesting subject after all. I think I'll go somewhere else because that really small building is about to collapse. Hope it doesn't when we are in it.




I wanna but the new candy mag. My crush is on the cover. Hahahaha! I have to confess ... I'm addicted to him. Hahaha!



So what do you think?
He looks yummy........
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.....Can i taste him?XD

Funny I'm typing this on my BLOG when I wouldn't even say this in the REAL WORLD. Well, literature is man's words anyway.

Anyway, we've got school tomorrow even though it's a Saturday. I hate it that me and my family can't go somewhere. By Sunday we are going to my aunt so we really won't be going anywhere. shit . I feel like my weeks not complete

So, I've got my eyes on these:
Converse Chucks All Star
I WANT THOSE NOW!

hahaha! So I'm off. my sis got to do hws. Bwyers!

on being myself (and what I feel)

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I am who I am


Who are you? Who am I?

After pondering over years, wondering who I am, I still haven't figured out what kind of creature I am and what is the purpose of my existence. Why did I live? All I know is I'm an EMO-tional student, having a common life, trying to make the most out of it, figuring out I actually can't.

People see me as this girl who LOOOOVES to study, loves to lead...your ordinary nerd. But then again, I'm not that. I'm not what you think I am. I am more that what your judgmental hearts say I am. I want to show you who I really am but basing from your reactions, I better not. Besides, I only care about how you will feel, not about how I will feel. Suddenly, I woke up to reality.

Right now, I'm trying to change to be myself. It's what I think is best for me. And I don't care what the shit you people will be saying about it. I'm sick of pretending to be someone I'm not. I don't give a damn for whatever you may conclude, this is me. Like it or Leave it.

I am:




I am me. I like Rock. I like how those guitars put up good "noise" as you say it does. I like it. I'm bored of studying but it's my debt to my parents to do so. They are the ones who tell me to go on. I like writing stuff as emotional like this. I don't care about saying bad words, I say them to tell people how I really feel. I love music because when words die out, Music speaks. It's a big help and I'm actually addicted to it. So if you see me with my iPod, don't judge me as a self-centered kid who doesn't care about the world and just plugs her earphones to her ears to not hear anything but her favorite music. I do that because it's the best i can do to let go of my emotions as they are carried away by the lyrics from my swollen heart. As they say, nothing is whole and nothing is broken... I wish I was myself ever since so that it wouldn't be hard for me to change back. But I never thought of suicide, it's only a thing stupid people do. Why waste your life, why place scars on yourself when people spend bucks to get them of..this is the truth. So if you want to kill yourself but don't wanna die, just change. Change may be an easy word but it's reall hard to go through. Change will be like killing the part of your soul that you hate. So go on try it and at least your life wouldn't be put to waste. Believe me, there's more to life, much much more than what you see right now.

*sigh* So , we are finish here. Try to write again. See you soon keyboard! Chao!

ugh! Rally against Crocs

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NO! NO! NO!Lately, I've been spotting people wearing these...um...stuff:

So, I found out they call it crocs. I was surprised when I saw a woman wear it at the mall. I wanted to ask her: "Where did you get those hideous looking toys on your feet?", adding, "Sorry, but they don't look good on you. Want me to get you a new pair of decent shoes?". They look like Kid's wear. They don't look good on people on whatever profile. They are not good...

People say that these are...er....comfortable to wear especially if you're gonna walk for miles. it's extremely light and lets water and air pass through. But hello? Would you even dare wear these? They are awful, much worse than wearing flip-flops in public. I mean, I'd rather wear flip-flops even though I really don't like flip-flops. Come ON! Wear something "decent" not these hideous looking thingies. I will never wear them even if someone dares me to do so in exchange of a thousand bucks. They are so gross!

Please people. Wear shoes which aren't eye-sore. They make me wanna puke at the site of them on grown-ups feet. Yeah, kids can because they are kids who can wear rubber but we, NO WAY! It looks plasticly, rubbery...just plain rubbish. Remember, DON'T give me a pair of these or else I'll KILL you. Give me a pair of FLATS which are better. This is for your greater good. TAKE NOTE, NO TO CROCS. FLATS ARE BETTER!!!!!!

The Pros and Cons of breathing

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:::This is one of my favorite songs,,, and I very much feel like singing it now:::
Fall Out Boy Lyrics
The Pros And Cons Of Breathing Lyrics